DAMNIT......WHY.....

well, as you can see from the title of this one......i haven't had a good day. as most of you know...I HAVE A LEARNING DISABILITY, not just one but 3. I have Dyslexia, Auditory Processing Disorders, and A.D.D.

there is no easy way to put this....sometimes just have rough days with my disability. i was sitting in class and the teacher's asst. who was directing the nutrition discussion started to tell us what we needed to do for the inclass work....well, i have a hard time with math .....and that is what we happened to do in our discussion. i was afraid to say that i needed help...well i just waited while everyone left so i could go talk to the T.A. and see what i can do.

my point is that...people like me have rough days. i absolutely hate dealing with this every single day of my life. i try to let my friends know about it...but they just don't understand. i know that they won't think different of me. i wish they could really understand what i go through. when i have days like this it hurts so bad some days i just feel like i am only 2 inches tall.

if i had a wish.....i wish that i could trade brains with just one person for one day to see what it would be like to read a text book in 2hrs. rather then 4 to 5 hrs. and do homework in half the time it takes me to do mine. that is what i would wish for if it was granted.

i know i have this problem for a reason (i just don't know why...yet) and i just have to trust.

but as of right now i just want to be upset and deal with it slowly. i really hate this....but at the same time i accept it.

before i say anything......check out the osu crew blog : http://okstatecrew.wordpress.com/


well, i had my 2nd day of crew practice this morning!!! Everyone ERGed, we had to get in a group of 4 or more and have a mine relay race. but first they showed us (the new-bes) the proper way to row! it was awesome, one of the guys that was on my team told me that i did really good for a first timer, hahaha! each person had to pull for 500 meters. after we got done there we went down to the corts to stretch, do an ab class and then a little more stretching.

it was a good morning!






say it with me...

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.........2

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.......................CREW!

OSU CREW TEAM

this morning at 6:00am -7:00am was my first practice for the OSU crew team.

work out consisted of:

• 1/2 mile run for warmup.
• next- went to the basketball courts for stretches and drills.
• we all got into 2 groups. 1st group went up to ERG (rowing machines in the colvin) and 2nt group did drills...i was in the group that did drills (back in forth across four courts).
• the drill i did or should i say group did:

run

20 crunches

run

10 push ups

run

20 crunches

run

20 lounges

run

20 crunches

run

25 jumpies

run

20 crunches

run

25 jumping jacks

took a small break and then back to do the drill again.

-wait i'm not done-

• then we did arm and abs streches.

did a 20 sets of sundrills (rotating of the arms) from the side and front. then held arms out straight for 20 sec.

• the did planks and more crunches.

that was our first day of crew! YAY! and i will be doing this everyday dill we get out on the water!

g-g-g-g-g-game night!

i know i just posted earlier today but i have one other thing to say before i go to bed.....holy SHEET it's 2:06am!!

anyways, tonight was game night on our floor and it was AWESOME! we played 2 games that have to have a nice size group. 1st game was.....well it didn't have a name...i will hav to explain it. the 2nt game was signs. with both games you have to use your hands. Darren and Rebecca - these 2 games would be awesome for you to play with your YL kids, or i could could come down and teach it to ya'll *just a thought*! tonight was a good night of fun and games!

man...this post was a little A.D.D.! sorry about that! (but you know you love it)

ok, i am going to bed (time is 2:16am)

P.S. GO POKES!!!

before i say anything......OSU BEAT OU 66-61! GO POKES!!!!



Alright, I came to the conclution that I am going to do crew and hopefully rush ΑΔΠ!!



for OSU CREW: (this is coming right off of there flier)

• what is crew?
  crew is a rowing team here at OSU. We race competitively against other Big 12 schools such as OU, UT, Baylor, KU, and Nebraska. We also have raced against WSU, OCU, Rice, Harvard, and the US Nationals team.
• Pracitice: 6:30 - 7:00am

anyways, i talked to the people that were head of the crew club and got the papers and said to myself "what the hell...I am going to give this a try"

and

for ΑΔΠ: I'm going to COR and hang with some of the girls and see what it is like. I already now a few of the girls in the house...So we shall see where that goes.

we are going bowling, having a movie night at the house, and then glow golfing for the weeks activities.

game time!

OSU vs. OU basketball game tonight at 8.

GO POKES beat the sooners!

spring rush!

well, i have been doing a lot of thinking about joining a sorority. i am going to COR next week to check things out i am looking at









so wish me luck on my decision.

ice ice baby!!

Well, I have been iced in sense friday at about 10:30...OSU canceled school at about that time. Everyone on my floor including me have been getting cabin fever! We have done a hole lot of nothing and bored out of our minds....So far we have watched a lot of TV, movies, and just sat around and ate a lot of food! Mostly we have been playing video games on an Xbox and PS2! Guitar hero has been the favorite so far and very addicting!

it is sunday and we still haven't seen the worst of the ice storm yet!! So hopefully we can try and find something to pass the time by!!

just thought I would give a quick update on what I am doing! blog ya later!

ICE!!!

Well, the first week of my new semester has started out good! I know at least one to two people in each of my classes!! I am not taking STAT.....I think I am just going to wait and take it in the summer so I can have a tutor!

anyways, there to add to the first week of school...we are getting ready for a major ICE storm! I am so ready for some cold weather! I stock up on water, flashlights, and food!! I got the call from the parents - making sure I was prepared! I am......don't worry!! Mom and dad.....i love you and I know you are just looking out for me! Thanks.

I hope you all stay tuned because I am going to has some serious blogging coming your way!!! I really want to post them now but I know that I am just going to have to wait!! But check back and see every now and again!

love ya'll


P.s. GO POKES!!!!

New semester!

Well, last semester really blew me out of the water and I really didn't think I was going to make it...But I did.....Here are my results :

intro to hospitality : midterm grade F and final grade B

student transfer class: midterm not available and final A

food prep and sanitation: mid. D and final C

and of course I got an A in band....duh!!

anyways, now I have a hole new plate to carry and I am going to use the same force and focus that I did last semester. I have never worked so hard in my life and with disability to get those grades!

for this semester I will be taking:

STAT or accounting (dropping one of them)

lifespan human development

econ. of social issues

principles of human nutrition

and finally a hospitality speaker series

osu football

OKLAHOMA STATE FOOTBALL - INDEPENDENCE BOWL 06'





Picture #1: is our own head coach MIKE GUNDY.
Picture #2: is the best football team in the state of OKLAHOMA.
and Picture #3: is our spirit squad.

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Well, I just got back for the independence bowl! YAY, go band *pumps fist in air* .

OSU - 34 BAMA - 30!!!!! it was a very close game and it was flippin awesome!

I got back today and boy do I have some stories to tell! haha but that will have to be later I am tired! I played my trombone till I had nothing else and was horse from screaming the rest of the time. So stay tuned fort the story! And one last thing.....GUNDY - you rock my face off and GO POKES!

to be continued...........

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

• before you read my mom said that the last one discribes me!! in a way i have to agree and sometime you have to poke fun at your disability (well just me)!

Subject: Psychiatric Christmas Carols

1) Schizophrenia - Do You Hear What I Hear, the Voices, the Voices?

2) Amnesia - I Don't Remember If I'll be Home for Christmas

3) Narcissistic - Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me

4) Manic - Deck The Halls And Walls And House And Lawn And Streets And Stores And Office And Town And Cars And Buses And Trucks And Trees And Fire Hydrants And...........

5) Multiple Personality Disorder - We Three Queens Disoriented Are

6) Paranoid - Santa Claus Is Coming To Get Us

7) Borderline Personality Disorder - You Better Watch Out, You Better not Shout, I'm Gonna Cry, and I'll not Tell You Why

8) Full Personality Disorder - Thoughts of Roasting You On an Open Fire

9) Obsessive Compulsive Disorder - Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells

10) Agoraphobia - I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day But Wouldn't Leave My House

11) Senile Dementia - Walking In a Winter Wonderland Miles from My House in My Slippers and Robe

12) Oppositional Defiant Disorder - I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus So I Burned Down the House

13) Social Anxiety Disorder - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas While I Sit Here and Hyperventilate

14) Attention Deficit Disorder - We Wish You..........Hey Look!! It's Snowing!!!

i love the snow!! enough said!

well, it snowed like crazy in cowboy country last wednesday and classes got cancaled thursday and friday!! so this is what we did.....











everyone is out in the lounge making hot coco and anything that is warm b/c of the snow that is falling out side!!!









this was what it looked like with in a few hours of it starting.









AHHH! so much snow!!! you can hardly see anyone infront of you!








time for a group shot!












hanna and katie playing in the snow!












snow ball fight .......boys vs. girls at 2:30am!








katie and brittany sittin on a big hunka junka snow!!! hahaha










action picture of the all the funness being had!






stopping to get some grub and stocking up on food!


I just love the people i live with!

MARRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

NEW HOBBY!! ..............maybe

Well, lately I have been thinking of doing something around the water and joinning sculling and/or rowing club. I will just have to see if that is what God wants me to do. This looks like a lot of fun and well just pain SWEET!

check out the website: http://www.chesapeakeboathouse.org/index2.html


I know if this is what God wants me to do this.....He will let is happen. :o)

:o)

Well, guys guess what I did tonight? I went to the colvin and worked out! YAY! I told myself that I was going to start working out starting in Nov....Well, tonight was the 1st and I feel pretty damn good.

I am starting myself off slow because little miss brenden hasn't worked out in a long time. I traded off walking and running for 30min. and maybe as I get in shape and build my way up to longer times of running then walking...but I think you get what I am saying!

so hopefully I can keep this up. I bet I can! *think positive* ....right?

anyways, life is GREAT and loving my dorm floor. AWWW.......SNAP!

Tony said: "don't forget about us"

It's that time again! It's homecoming and we are playing A & M. The week is filled with things to do and things to buy like t-shirts, hoodies, and so on and so forth! Well, I came across this booth that wasn't with homecoming stuff or at least I think so. But anyways, it was a booth to support the invisible children in Uganda, Africa.

last year in my pol. sci. class we watched a video or documentary about these amazing children and how they try to stay safe from the military and their journey to just stay alive. The video was very touching and I would like to encourage you to take a look at the website and what we could do to make a difference. I know I did when I bought the shirt. The money is going straight to those kids to aid them for things they need. I don't know about you but that makes me feel damn good that I am trying to help someone I have never met.

the website is www.invisiblechildren.com


take care everyone

Preacher BOB......This guy is CRAZZZZZY....trust me

ok for all of you who don't know who Preacher Bob is....well he is a crazy crazy man that comes on our campus to preach the word of God. Well, maybe just his.

Most of the time people go just to see what he has to say and see what he is going to do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9F8L7aZHFNQ - this is one of his videos that one of the students taped! check it out!

and here is some other videos ..... http://www.youtube.com/results?search_type=search_videos&search_query=preacher%20bob&search_sort=&search_category=0&page=1



the guy is stupid crazy! I laugh every time I go to see him speak. The stuff he says has nothing to do with the word of GOD.

let me know what you think!!!

Hey, Darren! I just read your blog and I feel the same way! Well, not totally but for the most part over loaded! I really hate the feeling that you get in your chest and shoulders when you get stressed or think about it and it turns into that. I have a lot on my plate as of right now and novmember.

2006 football Schedule:
09/02 Missouri St@ OSU (52-10 win)
09/09 OSU @ Arkansas St (35-7 win)
09/16 FAU @ OSU (48-8 win)
09/23 OSU @ Houston (34-25 loss)
10/07 OSU @ Kansas St (31-27 loss)

10/14 OSU @ Kansas 1:00 PM

10/21 Texas A&M @ OSU 6:05 PM
10/28 Nebraska @ OSU 6:00 PM
11/04 OSU @ Texas TBD
11/11 Baylor @ OSU 6:00 PM
11/18 OSU @ Texas Tech 1:00 PM
11/25 Oklahoma @ OSU 1:30 PM
that is just what is left (in the blue!) and I still have a lot to go.
I have a quiz in early American history over ch. 6,7, and 8.
I have a sarvsafe exam next Wednesday over a few chapters.
I have extra credit I need to work on just in case for a class and then go to band MWF 4:00 to 6:00! Huh! Oh and I have some group projects that are due some time in November….mom…dad…don’t worry I got it covered. Anyways, I just feel so smashed with stuff to do it is making it a little nerve racking! But don’t get me wrong this year has been the best I have had yet! Can I just stop time and catch my breath! Hahaha I wish…..maybe at Christmas! Who knows! I just have to push my faith and trust.

Is Christmas break here yet!?

Orange peel baby 06'

ORANGE PEEL 06'











The band @ OP getting set up to play!

Pulp the Orange! aww, he's so cute!

My buddy Phil and I at OP in the club seats! The band got in for free! VIP tickets baby! YAY!







The opening act - THE HERO FACTOR. They are a local band form Stillwater!







This is Bill Engvall form -blue caller comedy show! He was awesome!









It's Bill again!








and last but not least Alen Jackson!









< Alen on the big screen!

hope you enjoyed the pictures!

that is it for my update!

peace!

has anyone seen?....................

Ok, so last night I got really bord and re-orginized my eniter room. Well, in the prosses I lost my phone or I could have lost it even before my revamp of my room! But all I know is that my gnome has taken it and wont give it back! Why can't my gnome be nice and put in back where I left it! Also, I think my little friend has tinkered with my iPod! I can't get any song for my libary to my iPod.....*insert sad face*......man, mr. gnome can you cut me a break, wait or is it a girl.....ah *thoughs hands in the air* who knows...I shall pick.....and it's a boy ladies and gentleman! I shall call him...Fabio! Well, maybe I could come up with something more inventive later! I may want some help with that!